She's crying and kissing him, and he shouldn't be here but he is all the same.
listen to the thunder
Julian left and Ruin is here, and at some point the world got turned on its head and they forgot to tell her. Julian's gone, probably forever, and Ruin's here and calls her 'lover.' It should be enough.
can you let me go to hell the way I want to?
But it can't be, because it'll never be right.

And she's going to have to learn to live with that.